The title pretty much sums it up - I just found out yesterday that I have to do the one thing that I dread most during pregnancy: take the 3 hour glucose test. My one hour screen came back slightly elevated, just like it did during my fourth pregnancy, which means I have to do the icky, horrible, terrible 3 hour test. It's a no win situation - I strongly believe that I do not have Gestational Diabetes because it just doesn't make sense given my history and the fact that I have had, every time, babies that at full term weigh in on the smaller side of average. But, GD is dangerous when it's uncontrolled, so it's not something that I can just say, "nah, I'll pass" because it would weigh too heavily on my conscience. I hate, hate, hate this test, for two reasons. Primarily it's because there's this feeling of personal failure. Weight and eating habits are a risk factor for GD. There's nothing like knowing you've royally screwed up because of your messed-up relationship with food (that's a whole other post for another time though). Secondarily, the test is pure torture. It involves fasting and then drinking this super-sugary (blech!) drink and they draw your blood multiple times to monitor how efficiently your body is processing the sugar. By the time I got to the last draw last time (which is about four hours in) I was on the verge of passing out and they could barely find a vein to stick the needle in. I have it scheduled for next week Thursday and James will have to take half the day off so he can take care of the kids. I'm so done being pregnant (with this pregnancy and forever).